As we see a tree that has fallen in a forest, over time a variety of vines and moss cover it. Making the tree beautiful in ways it has never been. The brown bark becomes covered with renewed beauty. Sure, the tree no longer fills the forest ceiling with leaves that blow effortlessly in the wind, but now it has a renewed life adding beauty to the forest floor.
Rejoice in hope; be patient in affliction; be persistent in prayer.
Romans 12:12 HCSB
In contemplating this, I consider my past and the struggles I had with social anxiety disorder. I felt so alone and afraid for many years. I was broken. But in looking back, I now see the beauty in this brokenness. The friend who was there for me. The loving home I grew up in. My ability to have faith and keep pressing forward. Had I not gone through the struggles with social anxiety, I wouldn’t be writing this blog. I am certain I would not be the person I am today.
The brokenness brought beauty into my life. Even though it was difficult all the times I felt I couldn’t keep going, I did somehow. And to my complete amazement, I recently went on live television to help people find out more about social anxiety disorder. Never in my life would I have imagined that I would be on television – let alone talking so openly about the secret pain I held so close for so many years.
When you are struggling, look for something positive in your life. What brings you peace? Maybe it’s something simple like a hug from a friend. Or maybe you feel peaceful when you are journaling because you know you can be completely forthcoming with your sadness, frustration and even anger. When you are writing down your feelings, you can release them right onto the paper. And, as you keep writing, eventually you will start to see that there is some joy in your life. There will be signs that show you that you can survive. You will overcome. Even if you are broken, like a fallen tree in a forest, remember you are beautiful.
Sending you my love,